Things happen in their own time for a reason and sometimes that reason is not very clear to us and we just have to trust that God has a plan and he never gives us more than he believes we are able to handle.
When my grandmother passed on Christmas eve and my 3rd husband
asked me for a divorce the day after the funeral I came to the
realization that God must know that I am stronger than I ever
thought myself to be because He sent me a whole lot to deal with all at
one time. But at the same time, He gave me angels to help me and then
He sent me some more angels to help me find happiness again from people
who I had never met and knew nothing of my history. I know to trust in
the gifts given to me in new found friendships and am very slowly
beginning to believe that maybe I can be loved in the way of the fairy
tales and the love songs and that just maybe I have never really been in
love before, that has yet to come to me.
This was the realization or epiphany that came to me this morning as I was writing to a friend about loving his late wife who was taken from him way to early. It applies to me, it applies to all of us. The key is accepting that somethings are beyond our control and that we must trust that there are reasons for the events in our lives as they shape and mold us into the people we have yet to become. In my case, I have realized that I am very lumpy and no where near molded into the person I am meant to be. Obviously this is visible by the naked human eye and also visible within the eyes of God who continues to work on me as he does everyone else. I am a work in progress, I accept that. Time to get this lump moving and help Him out a little with the exterior part!
Thank you angels in my life who are helping me - Annette, Vanessa, Jill, and some who will remain anonymous!